It’s times like today that I am thankful for my family. I live away from most of them, but even so, they are there at the end of the phone, ready to help and assist in any way and that is just so comforting.
You do get a little frightened sometimes as your age creeps up on you and you realise that there is only, or no greater generation above you and even maybe a parent or even not above you, and in the pecking order (if it is to go in the order it should) is you and your siblings?
Worrying when I think about it too much, so I try not too, but I have no children, and one step daughter, and so I am reliant on my husband and his family, which is great, but in my family I have spread the net and further to keep in regular contact with my cousins too as, although some are not that close, you know that they are what has helped you through some pretty rough times, and tonight I reminded myself how lucky I am.
It appears that my female side of the family are the tough cookies, which is just as well considering just how much we have and will go through in our lives. We ring, we call, we send Christmas cards, they keep a check on my mum and they update me about my grandparent and my aunties and uncles, i am blessed! I really do believe that.
Time will tell what will happen and it’s in the lap of ‘our maker’ so I hope and pray that the best outcome happens, and when I say that I mean what is best for that person, not what is necessarily the selfish ‘right’ to keep someone here for longer than they want to be. There are times when you have to say enough is enough and learn to let them decide what is best for them and let them go with all the love and respect that most people have for their families, and the pulling together will get stronger until its your turn to let go and have the family with you when you decide ‘you know what- enough now- thank you’ and let them go in hopefully a very peaceful way where they can be with all the other family members who are no longer in our sights but in our hearts and minds.
With love.
